a journey into the chaotic world of mommyhood
Since my dinner was several hours ago, I am hungry. So, I am now debating whether to eat or clean up and sleep instead. I still have to wake up early in the morning because it’s the little boy’s therapy day today.
If I eat, that would mean that I won’t be able to sleep immediately. Besides, I’m trying to cut down on my food intake after dinner. I’ve been gaining weight lately and I can feel it. I feel heavy.
I’ve been told a long time ago that 3AM is the time when we are most vulnerable. Recently, I’ve seen this pass by my Facebook newsfeed, too. Well, it must be true. Being the nocturnal person that I am, being asleep at 3AM is rare for me. Working the night shift for so long screwed up my body clock, I guess. Now that I work the mid-shift, I still find myself awake at this hour. By the time I get home at around midnight until the wee hours in the morning is what I consider my quiet time. It is […]
It felt like the start of the month just yesterday. Now, we are midway done with the month. Where did all those days go? For some reason, I find this year to have gone by in a weird manner. Some days went by so fast, some days were too slow. And without realizing it, here we are, the first of the BER months. We’re still about 3 months away from Christmas and yet radio stations are already playing Christmas songs, even malls blast Christmas songs through their sound systems. Christmas decors are now being sold everywhere. Early Christmas shopping sales are […]
I should be sleeping now but for some reason, I can’t. It has been a gloomy day today at work (as gloomy as the weather, it seems) since it was our boss’s last day. He made his final endorsements, last set of photos taken with him, one last round of “see you soon”s. His access card made the last beep as he stepped out into the lobby to wait for the lift that will bring him to the parking lot. Lots of tears were still shed. The mood was different. People tried to be as normal as they could get, but […]
You hear your thoughts loud and clear… It’s 1:45AM this side of the world and I’m on my second cup mug of freshly brewed coffee. I know I should be taking it easy so I can sleep in a few hours but then I needed something to do besides doing the laundry. I’ll do that tomorrow, I guess. My mind has been cluttered with a lot of things lately it is really hard to concentrate. Music can no longer drown out the thoughts that slowly trickles through my consciousness. So, I might as well give it time and go through […]
… to know what’s wrong with the present… For quite sometime now, I have felt like I am floating or falling into an abyss. Or maybe I am hanging somewhere. And I am reminded of a song from way back then… Somewhere in Between by Lifehouse. And the line on the song goes like this “I’m somewhere in between what is real and just a dream”… I don’t know. I’ve been thinking quite a lot for the past few weeks. About the past, about the present, about the future. And I think that some things need to change. I just […]
It’s been a little over a couple of weeks since I blogged. The intention to blog was always there but every time I get home from work, I always drew a blank and I can’t remember the things that I have wanted to talk about. I know, I know. I should keep a handy-dandy notebook with me (which I always have in my bag) so I can jot down the idea once I get that eureka moment. But that notebook resides only in the bag and I only remember that it’s there when I see it (which, most often, I don’t). I […]
Lately, I have been sharing and liking a lot of inspirational quotes in my Facebook account. I guess it is a way to motivate myself out of my restless mood. Here are a few of those quotes: From the looks of it, I have really been feeling down and out of sorts lately. I guess I can chalk it up to stress, maybe? I don’t know. Probably this Momma is now in need of a little time for herself to regroup and come up with a new plan. The long hours at work, the stress brought upon by searching for […]
Before anything else, let me write my disclaimer down: This post is not meant to insult any religion, belief or faith nor do I intend to insult anyone. I am merely writing down my thoughts on what I know is a very sensitive topic for the majority of the people who might get to read this. I am not trying to look down at anything or even trying to be superior in terms of beliefs over anyone else’s. I would just like to “think out loud”, to simply put, in the hopes that maybe, there will be some readers out there who […]
It’s been 6 days since the first day of the year and here I am, typing away this post just now. And just Random Thoughts at that. LOL! As I type this, I am currently in a conference call while sitting beside my bed where my son is snoring the night away. I am not sure how long this call will go but it seems that the issue is going to affect a whole lot of operations, especially the project that we are about to go live towards the end of this month. So, before I go further, let me […]