It’s been, what, 3 weeks? since I posted something here. Well, with the exception of my usual letters to my son, that is. It has been a pretty busy and hectic three weeks that I wouldn’t even know how to begin. I should be sleeping now. I have only about 3 more hours to sleep, supposedly, before waking up to start preparing for our trip home. Yep, we are going home again today. But for some reason, I couldn’t sleep. My son is sound asleep beside me and my sister has already turned in as well. And here I am, decided […]
When Hope Is Lost…
This is a rant of a mother who just got her heart broken. Not for the faint-hearted. Consider yourselves warned. I am not yet ready to really divulge all the details that happened. But this is how I feel at this point in time. I think I just hit my lowest of lows in this lifetime. A point where I don’t know where to start again. My heart was just totally shattered to pieces. My spirit broken. My resolve gone. I just have one question: why? Why all these? Why me? Why now? Have I been really such that bad […]
One Year ago today, pt. 2
This day last year was my very first consultation with an OB-GYN. After seeing the results of the 2 HPT that I’ve done the day before, my bestfriend suggested that we visit an OB-GYN to confirm the test results. Good thing that my friend has a good head on her shoulders as I was already out of my mind after seeing the results. We went to the clinic, and while waiting for my turn to be called for consultation, the nurse took my blood pressure and weight as was the protocol. I do remember my heart racing during the short […]
One year ago today…
The world I know turned upside-down, inside-out, rolling over and under to the point of insanity. I didn’t know what to feel, how to react. I was bashing my head for being so stupid and reckless. Thousands of other questions run through my head with no definite answer, all starting with why. My head was turning so fast I was getting dizzy and was hoping against hope that it was just a dream, a fluke of nature. Yet, at the back of my head and in my heart, I was happy. For the first time in a long, long time, […]
Vacation over so soon…
A few hours from now, I – together with my son and my sister – will be travelling back to the big metro. The holidays are over and I need to go back to work (much to my disappointment 🙁 ). My son has an appointment with his pedia-ophthal on Tuesday that is why he is going back with me. My sister is coming with us as well to help take care of my little big boy while I report back to work. It was a very short two weeks, to tell you honestly. It seems like my son has […]
The year that was…
So… here we are again… The last day of the year (on my side of the world, that is). And looking back, this was indeed the year that was. So many things happened, so many lessons learned. So many discoveries as well. Sometimes it doesn’t even feel that it was just a year that has gone by. It felt a lot longer. As is my own tradition, here’s my recap of this year’s what-nots (not that I posted all my yearly recaps): January: – So many things happened this month. A very unexpected and surprising news on the first day […]
Z’s First Christmas…
This year is my little Z’s first Christmas. If last year’s holiday season was celebrated without my Dad, this year’s Christmas was celebrated with the newest addition to the family. 🙂 Since Z’s doctor gave the go-signal that it is OK for Z to travel, my Mom and my sister brought my baby home for the holidays. I stayed in the big metro for another day to do the super rush shopping for gifts. You see, it has been a habit (well, a tradition) for me to give gifts to the kids during the holidays. It doesn’t really feel the […]
The Post-Op…
So, the surgery was successful… Yipee! After 30 minutes of posting the previous blog, the nurse called me and told me that I am needed in the OR… I was anxious because no further information was given. I was only told that the surgeon was requesting me in the operating room. Closing my laptop and getting my bag, I went back to the fifth floor at the Ophthalmology operating room. I was given a set of scrub suit and quickly changed into it, then I was led to the waiting area beside the recovery room. There were two other patients […]
The Waiting Game
As of this writing, Z is already in the operating room for about an hour. I left him there crying – well, screaming. I think he was restrained again. And knowing that kid, he loves being able to move freely. Someone restrains him and he will scream and yell.
Bazaar here, Bazaar there, Bazaar everywhere…
It has been a busy weekend for me. Saturday was an overlapping event that got me in a bind. I was invited to a wedding that started at 2:30 PM then it was also the company’s year end party. The registration was 6PM. Given that it was a Saturday and the first one of December at that, I was expecting the roads to be heavy with traffic jams. And I woke up late last Saturday, too, so that added to the fact that I didn’t have enough time to prepare for the wedding. Little Z was awake until about 5 […]