The world I know turned upside-down, inside-out, rolling over and under to the point of insanity.
I didn’t know what to feel, how to react.
I was bashing my head for being so stupid and reckless. Thousands of other questions run through my head with no definite answer, all starting with why.
My head was turning so fast I was getting dizzy and was hoping against hope that it was just a dream, a fluke of nature.
Yet, at the back of my head and in my heart, I was happy. For the first time in a long, long time, I have something more precious than my life itself. Another life handed out to me so graciously that I didn’t think I deserve it. Amidst all the mistakes I’ve done and no way out of the circle I’ve been going around in, I found a way out.
My boring routinary life was changed in that single instant. Plans automatically changed amidst all the turbulent emotions and thoughts. My life slowly adjusted to accommodate the existence of another life.
It was a scary ordeal but nonetheless, one of the most exciting experience I’ve had. Looking back, I am grateful that I made the right choice in keeping my baby. The thought of losing it never really struck me as an option even before.
Now, a year after learning about my baby, I can only say one thing: my life is now complete.
I love you, sweetheart! 🙂
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