I brought the little boy home to the mountain city and as I type this, I am already in the bus waiting for it to bring me back to the big metro.
So, if you ask now, I haven’t left yet but I miss my little Z. 🙁 It’s going to be another long week before I get to see him. *Sigh*.
Well, I miss a lot of things. I miss the impulsive roadtrips, I miss my night outs, I miss spending time with my little boy. Yep, it will always go back to that.
Before I had my son, I was too impulsive with the decisions I made most of the time. I was an impulsive spender (well, I still am an impulsive spender, but not as I used to). Now, the impulse to buy something is usually for my little kiddo. I can’t even remember the last time I bought something for myself. But even then, I still curb the impulse to buy the cute stuff I see for my son but I do give in to a few. 🙂
Roadtrips nowadays consist of going to the mountain city and back to the big metro. No more segue to anywhere else. There are times that I want to still do that but that would be choosing between spending my time off from work elsewhere or spend it with my little boy. That’s a no-brainer. I could always bring my little boy with me but right now, I still don’t have the capability to do that. It would not be an impulsive trip, rather a planned one.
You can’t blame me if I say that I miss my night outs. That was how I used to spend my weekend nights before I got pregnant. Now, I’d rather spend my time with my son but every now and then, I do crave the company of the people I used to hang out with.
These would be easy to do for those parents in an ideal setup but, well, our setup is a little bit different. I don’t want to waste time doing things without my son.
I guess, at the end of the day, the ultimate thing I miss is my “me” time. I no longer get to do that. Maybe in the future. Who knows, right?